My name is Not Mara
When Naomi in the bible lost her 2 sons and her husband, she told her close ones to stop calling her Naomi and call her "Mara". The name "Mara" means "bitter". The ironic notion of this is that her namesake, Naomi, means the exact opposite. From Hebrew, it is translated to mean to be pleasant, sweet, delightful, beautiful. Very few times in life, do we have paradigm shifts and defining moments that force us to face who we really are on the inside. This year has been one of those moments for me. You know that do or die moment? The one where you realize you are all in and there is no other choice? So, how I have been feeling this year! 1st, it was the exhilarating feeling that the biggest transformation of my life (260 lb weight loss was about to occur). 2nd, I am at the highest point of my career, dating regularly, traveling the world. I mean, your girl is doing it! Or, so I thought. And then, the paralyzing fear came.